Thank you all for your responses, it means a lot to me, i have been struggling with evil for quite some time now, I thought it would go away.
I am usually always positive.
I've done all that im supposed to do, I visualize golden light.
I meditate too.
For 6 months or more I have been sick, whenever I yawn or laugh, or have any emotions it feels like im dying.
And when I say dying I dont mean panic attack, it felt like my head gets really heavy, high or low pressure, feels like bloodcut. and I have to constantly press the top of my mouth, it might be to do with my pineal gland ,tonsil, nose tubes/throat tube.
It feels like sometimes its stretches too far, or slouches.
I take medication, but it doesnt work.